I'm relaxing & reflecting over my life. I had a "me" day yesterday & it felt great! I felt awesome! I didn't ge tired or weary. I love days like that! I was told it takes a couple of years to start feeling normal after Cancer. It's been 2 years for me & almost back to normal. I feel better than I did pre Cancer! I've changed a lot of things in my life for the better. I made reference to a few things such as eating fruit, which I touched on in a couple of my Blogs. Everything is better as far as my body. Skin, immune system, etc. I take vitamins & watch what I eat. I've never been a junk food eater, but I would eat some things that were not good for me. I want to see my children grow up & live their lives, so I'm doing everything possible to make that happen! I ask the question, is eating whatever more important than your health. I think not! I remember when I was at my sickest, I use to just say, I just want to feel good & be able to get out the bed & go to the grocery store. I know that sounds weird to some, but I get pleasure out of grocery shopping for my family. I get pleasure out of the simple things in life! I just wanted to be able to cook a meal & feel good doing that. People take health & feeling good for granted! A sick person would trade places with you in a heart beat! Think about it! Before you complain about a simple ache, think about that person that is really sick or dying! Your little ache isn't nothing compared to their pain! I use to complain all the time to the point where my family/friends didn't believe something was seriously wrong with me when I told them something was seriously wrong with me! I felt something wasn't right! I know my body & I had never been in that kind of pain! I knew it & I was right! I was afraid, but never told a soul! I think twice before I complain about anything, because it could be worse! I couldn't drive or anything! There was a point when my husband had to bathe me! I cried when that happened! I never thought at 37, my husband would have to bathe me! He said that's what I'm here for! I stopped crying & looked at him & said ok! Thank God for my husband! Can you imagine not being able to bathe yourself? I'm a shower girl & I couldn't shower because I was too weak to stand up! My husband would have to help me out the tub when I was able to bathe myself. He had to dress me, etc! I'm so thankful to be healthy! You may take bathing & getting dressed for granted, but I don't! I appreciate every little thing! Health is wonderful! I would pray for good days! When I got good day, I cherished them to the fullest! My husband, the kids & I went to the Outlet's & I was in the store with them & I couldn't stand any longer, so I went to the car. This was during Chemo. I went to the car & cried my heart out! I just wanted to school shop with them as usual! I had a scarf on because I lost my hair & I took it off because my head was hurting. I just wanted to relax! I saw them coming & I put it back on. I didn't want my kids to see my head at the time. My daughter saw my head & just looked at me & my son said it doesn't look bad! I think about that moment a lot & realized that hair grows back! I had to fight to be there for them! Once I finished Chemo & started Radiation, I was doing a count down to my last treatment. I had 20 treatments of Radiation. I knew my recovery process would be long & sometimes hard! Radiation didn't hurt, it just made me extremely tired! I couldn't even lift my arms, I was so tired! I cried a lot during that time! I just wanted to feel good! I had to let it out! You have to cry & release those feelings. Holding it in, makes you sicker! My husband would be driving me home from treatment & I would cry silently! I couldn't believe I was 37 & going through that! It has taken me 2 years to get to this point in my life. I still have leg pain from time to time due to Chemo! It's side effects to Chemo & Radiation, but I'm doing great! I can deal with little things! I have life! That's all that matters! Thank you Jesus! I take each day & give thanks for feeling good! If I'm a little tired, guess what? I still give thanks! I just relax & take it easy! Appreciate your health & take care of your body! Not everyone is feeling great! Pray for our sick & shut in! Nobody wants to be sick! Remember that! I have a cause in life & I'm fighting for my cause & trying to spread awareness to this disease. If you've never had Cancer, don't try to assume or tell someone how they should feel! Please have compassion for other's. I can do things & take care of myself & my family again! Don't tell me God isn't good! Don't tell me to shut up about his goodness! Don't tell me to stop talking about my journey! I'm spreading the word! I'm doing me & I'm HEALTHY!!! Health is important! Take care of yourself! Have a Blessed day & Love to all!!! ;)
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