A higher Power.....Using your mind.

I think back to when I was going through Chemo & Radiation. People use to be shocked at my appearance when I was sick. The only way you could tell I was sick was by my head. I was bald & I wore a scarf. You could see I was bald by the bottom of the scarf. Some days I just looked tired, but all in all, I looked normal. I didn't realize this until later. I didn't lose weight. I gained due to the steroid. I gained 9 lbs. I looked healthy. I felt like crap a lot, but I didn't look like it. I remember how my grandfather, grandmother & father looked when they had Cancer. I thought I was going to look like that. I expected the worse at first. I remember Praying so much & listening to other people who had gone through what I was enduring. I said if God did it for them, he can do the same for me. I looked a Chemo like the killer of the Cancer in my chest & I had to take it. I would sit & look around the room at all the people. I was the youngest person in the room. I was 37 at that time. Everyone in there getting Chemo was really older. We all were bald & looked tired. That was so depressing for me. I use to ask to lay in the private suite to get my Chemo. I was there 2 days every 3 weeks. I would be there from 10Am-2:30PM getting poison pumped in my body. I would people watch. I just looked at everyone & would wonder what was their story & what kind of Cancer they had & say a silent Prayer for each person. They wrap you up in a bunch of blankets & you can watch tv, read or just sleep. I couldn't concentrate to watch TV. I just Prayed & meditated. I remember this person said to me, use the power of your mind to beat this with Prayer. What you believe & think is what you get. You want to live, think & see yourself well. That's what I would do. I had my sad moments, don't get me wrong. I'm not perfect. I saw myself well. When I would go for my check-ups during that time, my Doctor was amazed at how I was doing. He said he had never had a patient who didn't look sick during this process. God was the reason. I thought I looked sickly. My friend & husband would say to me, you don't know how good you look considering what you're going through. I remember when I completed Chemo. I was so emotional! I didn't think it would ever end & I made it! I had to started Radiation & the 1st 2 weeks you feel fine. I was like I got this. They said on the 3rd week, you're body will crash & you will be so week. Boy oh boy, they didn't lie! I was so exhausted! I couldn't even stand for too long. My husband had to help me walk & Radiation made me so emotional. I would cry the whole way home from the hospital. I couldn't believe how I felt & why. I would go Mon-Fri for 4 weeks. The Radiation treatment would last maybe 10 mins. It takes so much out of you. Thurs I would get a burst of energy, so I would go dressed nice, because I felt good. That made me feel good! I kept saying I can do this. This to shall pass! God is able. I know I slept a lot during that time. I listened to Healing CD's & that was amazing. It got in my head & I would recite the scriptures in my sleep. I had to do mind over matter. I fought tooth & nail with mind power with Prayer. I Pray for people who are just beginning this journey & I Pray for strength & belief in God that he can heal. My friend had to say you can beat this. She saw the pain I endured. I can't explain it, but I will never forget it. I'm so glad it's over & I speak health into my life. I don't speak illness. That's the power of the mind. If you want a healing, speak it & believe it! Don't ever give up on God & your mind power. God is a healer! Love to all! ;)
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I'm amazed at how good God is.........

     Hello! I remember when I was a child & my grandma use to make me go to Church every Sunday. I use to get so angry, because I wanted to sleep in. I would get up & go & have an attitude. I now see how important it was for me to go to Church. It set the foundation for me in life. My grandmother taught us about God early on. She use to tell us stories about the Bible. This one particular story stood out in my mind. She said you better be good & do right in life. She said God don't like ugly. She said you & you're keep being bad & when the world end, I will go to Heaven & you two will burn in Hell. She said we will be walking down the street & the sky will get black & the world will start to end & God will pull me up in the sky & you will be crying, saying grandma don't leave us. She said God might give you a 2nd chance to do right & you can make it to Heaven & we will see each other again. That story scared me straight! I wouldn't do certain things, because of that story! She always said be righteous in your life. I think of the story now & laugh. It saved my life. I would watch my friends do bad & I would leave. They would tease me, but I didn't care. I wasn't brought up like that. I'm so thankful & amazed at how good God has been to me! I still can't do bad, without seeing my grandmother & thinking what would God think. God has kept me out of some situations. God gave me intuition & I use it. I was about 18 or 19 & I had friends that would drink alcohol & smoke weed, but before they would start, I would leave. I would tell them call me later. By that point, they understood my beliefs & they would said ok. They teased at first, but they got it. My grandmother talked to me about a lot & I respected what she was saying & I chose to listen. I didn't want to do what everybody else was doing. I wasn't a bad kid. I didn't sneak out or do crazy things as a teenager, because I had that Church foundation & I knew the power of God. I did little sneaky things from time to time, but nothing major. God is amazing to me. I could've chosen the path my brother had taken, but I was the type of kid who learned from others mistakes. God made me strong! I sit back in amazement about how God has been in control of my life from day 1. We think we're running things, but oh how naïve we really are. God pulls us out of some bad situations. I know you don't think you made that happen. Sit back & watch God amaze you. Surrender & watch life flow so easily. This I know. I'm so AMAZED!!! Love to all! ;)

You don't have to understand someone's journey in life..........Wish them well & not condemn.

     Hello! Everybody does not take the same path in life. Just because someone is not on the level you think they should be on is not your concern, unless it's your child. Some people don't find their passion until later in life. That's fine! God may still be working on that person to get them to the right place in life. Don't judge! People find it real easy to judge a person for success or lack there of. Everybody is not meant to be famous, rich or successful. Some people can be content in life with what they are doing. Some people are meant to be teachers. That's their calling in life. That's great for them. Some people may be CEO's & that's great for them. Some may even work a regular 9 to 5 & that's great for them. If they're happy & content, mind your business! A lot of people make a career change in life. Why? They were not happy & maybe they were not fulfilling their calling in life. Whatever you choose to do in life, rather it's later in life, do what makes you happy. You can't please everyone. Remember that fact! I'm at a point in my life where I'm in search of my calling. It's ok! I don't have to please anyone but God. Only God can judge me! I've been Blessed to be a housewife for 8yrs. Even though I endured Cancer in 09, my life is so different. The things I liked doing back then (work), I don't have the desire for that anymore. God is moving in my life & I'm being patient & waiting. I'm not moving to anybody's tune, just because they feel I should be doing something. God is revealing things to me. I feel I'm close to a major breakthrough! It's never too late to start your life over. Don't let anybody tell you it is. Marla Gibbs didn't become an actress until 41. That says a lot. Keep pushing on whatever it is you want to do. If you start something & don't finish, that wasn't the plan for you. Boom! If you're passionate about something & it's for you, you will complete it. I don't care if I start a million projects & stop, it's my business! One day a project will stick. Just because you stop something, doesn't make you a loser. You're stopping for a reason. Remember that! Prayer is the key! Ask God to reveal it to you & it shall be revealed. I Blog & I don't have but a few followers, but one day I will reach people & make a difference. I'm not blogging just to blog. It's a reason why I'm doing this. It's healing & helpful. I love to write when I do. I use to write short stories all the time in the 90's. I use to write my feelings down on paper. Writing is relaxing for me. I use to want to write, but life got busy, but I starting up again recently. It's at my own pace! Don't tell a person they never finish anything. That's such a put down to that person. Let them find their own path & you follow your path. God gave us all gifts. We just have to figure them out. Be kind & supportive. Don't condemn other's for what they're not doing. God is love. The devil is condemning! Remember that. Love to all! ;)

Divine Intervention

I was laying in bed reflecting & I was Praying & thinking about some things. Answers were revealed to me. We look at interruptions as disappoints, but actually they are God's Divine Intervention. I will go more into to detail on that in a minute. I'm making major changes in my life as I talked about in earlier blogs. I was wondering if I'm making the right choices & again, it was revealed this morning. I had been thinking about my late grandmother & what decisions would she make. Something said cut the TV on & turn to BET to watch Bobby Jones Gospel. A commercial was on, so I waited. It was the end of the show & Bobby started singing I'm a soldier in the army of the Lord. Ok, u say so what does that mean. That was my grandmother's favorite gospel song. I use to love to hear her beating her tambourine & singing that song! It was a message from her, saying you're making the right choices. I started clapping, singing & crying. Thank you Lord! I can remember my husband driving me home from one of my many appointments during Chemo & I was crying looking out the window. I was very sad. It was early on after my diagnosis. My husband was telling me to be strong & fight. I could see the sadness in his eyes. My kids were in the back seat & the radio was playing & all of a sudden the radio started scanning different stations on it's on. We thought the kids were doing it & they were not. All of a sudden that song came on: I'm a soldier in the army of the Lord. They freaked us all out, because we know she loved that song. We all looked at each other. My husband said that's your grandmother telling you to fight & everything will be ok. That really gave me comfort & it calmed me down. God sent me a Divine Intervention! I received that message. I felt my grandmother's presence the whole way through Cancer. That was amazing to me. So, to hear that song this morning gave me conformation & I feel good about what I'm doing. Wait & be patient while waiting on God to move. He will reveal himself in a big way. Wait on your Divine Intervention! Love to all ;)
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40TH Birthday Banner In My Favorite Colors

I made it to 40!!! I'm 40 & healthy! Thank you Jesus!

Love

Love helped heal me of Cancer!

Love

Love heals all!

Eating Fruit Can Save Your Life

Please read & do this for your health!

Sexy

Cancer Survivor!

Turning 40

A healthy Cancer survivor!

Purple Heart Award

My award! I did it! Sept.09

I Did It

My award from 09.

Anniversary Flowers To Myself

Anniversary flowers for 3 years Cancer free to myself!

My Anniversary Cake

My anniversary cake. 3 years! Thank you Lord!

Confronting the past

     I called my mother & told her I forgive her. I asked her so many questions about why this, why that. She was a little defensive at first. I put her at ease & said this is not an attack. I need to heal & let go of the past. I told her I understand what happened to you wounded you & hurt people, hurt other people. I said I was sorry for what happened to her, but I need closure. I said a simple I'm sorry will help me! She listened for awhile & went on to say she's a survivor & a strong person, etc. I said why did you abuse alcohol. She said she enjoyed it & I said you used it to numb the pain & that's fine whether you believe it or not. I told her I hated her for years & I'm done with that. I said I appreciate the fact that you called when my father died & kept calling when I was going through my Cancer treatments. I said I wasn't ready to see you 3 years ago, but I'm ready to now. We can take baby steps. I also asked her to talk to all her children & apologize for the things she did. It was good for me to say how I felt & for her to hear this. I gave her something to think about. I hope she heard me. I did my part & I feel GREAT! Thank you Lord for showing me the light & letting go of my anger. To moving forward! I realized at one point that my mother was 22 with 6 kids at the time. She was a wounded baby with kids. Wow! My mother had 9 kids by age 36. She needed to heal before having kids & she didn't, so how could she have been a good mother. I get that. I won't go into details on what happened to her, but it was too terrible to process. I Pray for her that one day she finds peace & forgiveness in herself. I'm 40 & she's 57. Lord be with her! Love to all! ;)

The past is not my future

     I'm trying to start letting some people in my life. I haven't had much of a relationship with my family. My grandmother, grandfather, father, brother & uncle were my family. My grandfather, grandmother & father passed away. My brother & uncle are incarcerated. I'm out here alone. I didn't have a relationship with my mother or her side of the family. My brother & I came to live with my grandparents when I was 9. My mother abused alcohol. My father abused drugs. My grandparents were my saving grace. I'm not ashamed to admit that, it's my truth & my life. It took me awhile to understand certain things, but I get it. I forgive my mother. She had a problem. She reached out to me during my Cancer treatments & we talk once a month. I'm still leary, but I have to move forward. My mother was wounded as a child. She had 9 kids & didn't know how to be a mother. She was 17 when I was born & 16 when my oldest brother was born. How could a 16 year old that was so wounded parent us. I'm taking baby steps to talk to her, but I'm doing it. I feel disconnected from her. It doesn't feel like a mother/daughter relationship. It feels like a distant relative. I can appreciate that she was the only one to reach out to me during that time on her side of the family. I was real mean to her when she called at first. I was battling Cancer & anger at first. I thought to myself, wow, she called me. I decided to be kind. I didn't want to see her during that time. I wasn't ready, but I think I can see her now. What happened in the past is the past & I can't go back & change it, so I'm moving forward. I have 7 brothers & 1 sister. I'm not close to any of them, but my older brother. We were raised together. I don't know them like that. I will try to open my heart & embrace the fact that I do have family. I will try to have a relationship with some. That's a major step for me. I'm growing. I have a younger brother who's 21 & I think I deserve to get to know him. I tried before, but I wasn't totally ready, so I stopped. I'm 40 & I have a future, but I have to let go of the past. My past won't hold me back any longer. I would go years or more without a word from my mother & I didn't care. I knew she was alive & that's all I needed to know. I share my story, because I know it can help someone, somewhere. This is a huge thing for me to do. Pray for me! I must do this. My grandparents made me into the woman that I am, but I must carry on, even though they're not here. My father was on drugs, but I knew he loved me. He was a constant in my life & I will never forget! He died 2 days before I got my test results back that I had Cancer. He came to see me in the hospital after my surgery & I knew that would be the last time I saw him. He had a heart attack all alone. I couldn't properly grieve his death because I had just had surgery & couldn't hardly move. I had him cremated. That's all I could do. I have to say goodbye to him in a proper way. I had anger in me. I had just lost my father & was dealing with Cancer at the same time. I had lost my grandmother a year before that. I had so much on me, that I buried everything! I'm here to face everything head on. I'm strong enough to deal with what I need to deal with. God gave me strength & it's time! I have a journey ahead, but I can truly say I'm ready! I'm an open book. I'm not ashamed of my past. In fact, I embrace it for my future. It's my time now. I'm getting ready to say goodbye to my father & confront my past head on. Thank you God for preparing me! I will not hold anything in anymore. That's how people get sick. Take it from someone who know's that 1st hand. Love to all! ;)

Healing & forgiving

I realized something over time, that Cancer changed me tremendously. It made me see things for what they really are & I'm in the process of making BIG changes in my precious life. I have been healing for 3 years. Not just from Cancer, but from hurt in my life. I always talk of forgiving & moving on, but I have to really let go. I was so hurt at how my family & some friends did me while I was going through Cancer treatments, that it turned into anger. I don't want that anger & will not give people power over me. God has Blessed me in so many ways & I will not take away from all that is good in my life. I had people turn their backs on me during that time. I had Cancer & it was not contagious. People acted like they could catch it. I would've never turned my back on a person like that. I had to realize that everyone is not like me. I had family wishing I would die all due to jealousy. I had friends basically trying to torment me. Yeah, harsh! I cut so many people off. I had too! I didn't deal with the issue at the time, because I was too sick. I now forgive & let go. I will not deal with these people, but I move on. I Pray for these people & wish them the best. Some people are in our lives for a season & I had to realize that. I was so hurt & lost focus. It took away from the people that were there for me. I so appreciate everyone who had a hand in encouraging & helping me during that time. When I would think about those people, I would get so angry. Not anymore. I'm forgiving & healing. I'm moving on. I have some relationships I need to repair & I'm working on that. I am quick to remove people out of my life & move on. I will stand & do what I have to do in my life. God is teaching me everyday & I'm receiving the lesson. I let go of the hurt & heal myself. I'm done with 3 years of anger. Not worth my time. That season had to come to an end. God revealed those people to me. Family or not, some people are not meant to be in your life. That's fine. Love the people that's meant to be in your life. I'm working on repairing myself & starting over. I feel so refreshed today. Thank God for enlightening me & making me see the light. Forgiving is the best thing for me to do to heal. The hurt is in the rear view mirror. Goodbye! I'm healing everyday. I'm thankful for my experience. Heal & forgive! That's the key to moving forward. Just thought I would share my story. Love to all! ;)
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Forgiving & moving forward

Hello, I was watching a movie called: A Cross To Bear & this movie triggered so many emotions in me. I had been harboring some things, that I know I had no control over for 20 years! I would think about them from time to time & get sad! I would talk about them with my friend & that was it. She would tell me to forgive myself. I knew I had to let go. I would go years without thinking of these things, but they were always lurking in the back of my head. This movie made me see some things in a different light & I had my AWW HA moment! Things happen for a reason. I know this, but I still thought about it. I let it go today & said the past is the past & I'm done! I forgive me!!! Don't believe the hype! We all have things in our past that we aren't proud of, but let the past be the past! The past can't define our future! It will if you let it! I never let my past determine my future, but I thought about it a lot. I'm not giving it no more energy! I'm done! Mistakes were made & there's no time machine that can take us back to fix the mistakes, so we have to get over it! Point blank! Just that simple! It's amazing how God will send you a message through a movie! Thank you father!!! I get it! Light bulb moment! I hope you listen to this message & maybe you can help yourself or someone! Have a Blessed night & love to all!!!
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People should learn to support each other & stop the hate!

Hello! I realized that life is short & other people need to realize this as well. I value spending time with my husband & kids! I wouldn't trade that for the world! Some people will turn on you in a heart beat, but when you have love & supportive people in your corner, the people that turned on you won't even matter! Like the book says, "Stop sweating the small stuff" We have to be there for each other! When your in need you want someone to be there for you, so when you have a friend who needs someone to be there for them, be there! Whether, it's to talk, listen or hold a hand! People need to learn to get outside of themselves! I love the saying, "A friend indeed". Not a friend sometimes, but a friend in sickness & health! Good times & bad! I only have people in my life that's good for me & I'm good for them! I had to let go of negative people! We need to encourage each other, not tear each other down! If u can't be true to someone, get out the way! I was thinking & wanted to share. Hate is disease filled & kills!!! Love heals & adds to your life! Please keep the love flowing! Have a Blessed night & love to all!
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Feeling GREAT!!!

I'm relaxing & reflecting over my life. I had a "me" day yesterday & it felt great! I felt awesome! I didn't ge tired or weary. I love days like that! I was told it takes a couple of years to start feeling normal after Cancer. It's been 2 years for me & almost back to normal. I feel better than I did pre Cancer! I've changed a lot of things in my life for the better. I made reference to a few things such as eating fruit, which I touched on in a couple of my Blogs. Everything is better as far as my body. Skin, immune system, etc. I take vitamins & watch what I eat. I've never been a junk food eater, but I would eat some things that were not good for me. I want to see my children grow up & live their lives, so I'm doing everything possible to make that happen! I ask the question, is eating whatever more important than your health. I think not! I remember when I was at my sickest, I use to just say, I just want to feel good & be able to get out the bed & go to the grocery store. I know that sounds weird to some, but I get pleasure out of grocery shopping for my family. I get pleasure out of the simple things in life! I just wanted to be able to cook a meal & feel good doing that. People take health & feeling good for granted! A sick person would trade places with you in a heart beat! Think about it! Before you complain about a simple ache, think about that person that is really sick or dying! Your little ache isn't nothing compared to their pain! I use to complain all the time to the point where my family/friends didn't believe something was seriously wrong with me when I told them something was seriously wrong with me! I felt something wasn't right! I know my body & I had never been in that kind of pain! I knew it & I was right! I was afraid, but never told a soul! I think twice before I complain about anything, because it could be worse! I couldn't drive or anything! There was a point when my husband had to bathe me! I cried when that happened! I never thought at 37, my husband would have to bathe me! He said that's what I'm here for! I stopped crying & looked at him & said ok! Thank God for my husband! Can you imagine not being able to bathe yourself? I'm a shower girl & I couldn't shower because I was too weak to stand up! My husband would have to help me out the tub when I was able to bathe myself. He had to dress me, etc! I'm so thankful to be healthy! You may take bathing & getting dressed for granted, but I don't! I appreciate every little thing! Health is wonderful! I would pray for good days! When I got good day, I cherished them to the fullest! My husband, the kids & I went to the Outlet's & I was in the store with them & I couldn't stand any longer, so I went to the car. This was during Chemo. I went to the car & cried my heart out! I just wanted to school shop with them as usual! I had a scarf on because I lost my hair & I took it off because my head was hurting. I just wanted to relax! I saw them coming & I put it back on. I didn't want my kids to see my head at the time. My daughter saw my head & just looked at me & my son said it doesn't look bad! I think about that moment a lot & realized that hair grows back! I had to fight to be there for them! Once I finished Chemo & started Radiation, I was doing a count down to my last treatment. I had 20 treatments of Radiation. I knew my recovery process would be long & sometimes hard! Radiation didn't hurt, it just made me extremely tired! I couldn't even lift my arms, I was so tired! I cried a lot during that time! I just wanted to feel good! I had to let it out! You have to cry & release those feelings. Holding it in, makes you sicker! My husband would be driving me home from treatment & I would cry silently! I couldn't believe I was 37 & going through that! It has taken me 2 years to get to this point in my life. I still have leg pain from time to time due to Chemo! It's side effects to Chemo & Radiation, but I'm doing great! I can deal with little things! I have life! That's all that matters! Thank you Jesus! I take each day & give thanks for feeling good! If I'm a little tired, guess what? I still give thanks! I just relax & take it easy! Appreciate your health & take care of your body! Not everyone is feeling great! Pray for our sick & shut in! Nobody wants to be sick! Remember that! I have a cause in life & I'm fighting for my cause & trying to spread awareness to this disease. If you've never had Cancer, don't try to assume or tell someone how they should feel! Please have compassion for other's. I can do things & take care of myself & my family again! Don't tell me God isn't good! Don't tell me to shut up about his goodness! Don't tell me to stop talking about my journey! I'm spreading the word! I'm doing me & I'm HEALTHY!!! Health is important! Take care of yourself! Have a Blessed day & Love to all!!! ;)

Life Change

Hello! I remember as a child my grandmother would stress how important it was to go to church. She would tell my brother & I stories that were in the Bible. She talked a lot about good & evil. She would tell us that we have to Pray. I still can remember all the stories she would tell us. Those stories made me into the person I am today. It's a lot of things I wouldn't & still won't do to this day. Those stories of good & evil kept me out of a lot of trouble! Thank God for my grandmother who taught me what my mother didn't! I remember not wanting to go to church this particular Sunday & my grandmother made me go. I was so mad at her! I had just gotten my Jheri Curl done & anyone who has ever had a Jheri Curl knows that your hair stays dry for 2 days, until the moisture set in. My hair was so dry & I was embarrassed by my hair. She said God doesn't care how you look. I went to church with an attitude & sat in the back of the Church. I think about that day & say to myself, she was so right! That was the child in me at the time. I was 11 years old at the time. God just wants us to serve him & spread the word. Who cares how u look or what you have on. My grandmother told me to always love God & he will always take care of you. She was so right! I turn to God for love & support! I wouldn't have never made it through without God's love! I share the stories my grandmother told me with my 2 kids. I didn't understand every story she told me at the time, but I get it now! My grandmother was a very spiritual woman. She went to church all the time & would pray all the time. She said she prayed before things would happen. She said you don't just go to The Father when things are bad. She said you pray when things are good as well. She said show God some appreciation. Everything she said came back full circle! My grandmother was a wise woman & I find myself turning into her. Lol! That's funny to say that! She had her moments, but she was as real as they get. My grandmother taught me how to pray at an early age. I taught my kids how to pray the same way. My daughter is a praying child! She'll pray at the drop of a hat! I remember going through Chemo & I would be having a really bad pain day & when my daughter would pray for me, I would feel so much better! A child shall lead the way! My grandmother would say to me keep living. I would say what does she mean. She said when you get older you will remember all of this. I do! God really is the source of everything! Turn to God for everything! Go over your childhood & pull from the things you learned & apply them in your life. I'm thankful for every experience I've had! Good or bad! It's a lesson in everything. Cancer changed my life for the better! The experience was bad, but there was a lesson in it all! I'm a vessel being used for good for other people. I miss my grandmother, but I will always love her & carry the things she taught me, forever! Moral of the story is to serve God & go to him for everything! Life will change forever, but we have to be faithful to The Father! Monkey see, monkey don't have to do! I try to be as good as possible. I try to encourage as many people as I can. I made it through & I want other people to do the same. I'm thankful for this life change & I'm happy. This may apply to someone out there. Life may be hard right now, but it does get better. Joy cometh in the morning! There is light at the end of the tunnel. It may not seem like it, but trust me, it is! I couldn't wait to get out of the darkness of Cancer! I thought it took forever, but my family & friends tell me how quick the process was. I say process, because it was. Cancer didn't have me! I fought like hell to get out of darkness! It was very hard & depressing, but I sought God & he delivered me out of the darkness & healed me! I prayed everyday! I listened to a healing scripture cd everyday. I believed in a healing! I confessed it everyday! The Devil was very busy during that time. Some days I was discouraged! I saw my grandmother saying fight! I couldn't give up & that's when I realized that I was in a process of healing & being made whole by the father! Hold on & fight! Give it all you have! I don't care if you don't have faith, you better dig deep within & find it! God wants us all well & happy! All you need is faith! God will do the rest! Please, believe in a higher power & know that he is real! Are you ready for life's change? I'll leave you with this scripture, Psalms 34:4, I sought the Lord, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears. Have a Blessed Day & Love to all!!!
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Negative thoughts & comments!!!

     I received a negative comment from someone on my Blog today & it didn't make me feel sad or anything. I felt more sad for this person, who said they didn't believe in God & called my beliefs foolish. I know God is the only reason I'm still here & Cancer free! I Pray that this person wakes up soon & let go of his/her foolish beliefs of serving Satan, if it's true! I pray for that person's soul! I'm serving God & doing his will by spreading LOVE not HATE!!! I encourage everyone to have faith & see things that are impossible become possible in his name! I thank this person for the email! It made me send out this message of LOVE! Don't throw salt my way! Send me love! I send out hope & love to anyone who is willing to receive! Please keep fighting & believing in a healing or whatever you're believing in! God makes things possible! Faith is all we need! God is my source of everything! I hope this is encouraging to anyone reading this Blog today! I wish everyone a great day! Love to all!

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Psalm 34:1-22 KJV
     "I will bless the Lord at all times: his praise shall continually be in my mouth. My soul shall make her boast in the Lord: the humble shall hear thereof, and be glad. O magnify the Lord with me, and let us exalt his name together. I sought the Lord, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears. They looked unto him, and were lightened: and their faces were not ashamed. This poor man cried, and the Lord heard him, and saved him out of all his troubles. The angel of the Lord encampeth round about them that fear him, and delivereth them. O taste and see that the Lord is good: blessed is the man that trusteth in him. O fear the Lord, ye his saints: for there is no want to them that fear him. The young lions do lack, and suffer hunger: but they that seek the Lord shall not want any good thing. Come, ye children, hearken unto me: I will teach you the fear of the Lord. What man is he that desireth life, and loveth many days, that he may see good? Keep thy tongue from evil, and thy lips from speaking guile. Depart from evil, and do good; seek peace, and pursue it. The eyes of the Lord are upon the righteous, and his ears are open unto their cry. The face of the Lord is against them that do evil, to cut off the remembrance of them from the earth. The righteous cry, and the Lord heareth, and delivereth them out of all their troubles. The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the Lord delivereth him out of them all. He keepeth all his bones: not one of them is broken. Evil shall slay the wicked: and they that hate the righteous shall be desolate. The Lord redeemeth the soul of his servants: and none of them that trust in him shall be desolate."
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This chapter in the Bible saved me from my negative thoughts during chemo! Especially 34:4!!! "I sought the Lord, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears" My husband's aunt told me to read that verse & she said the Lord told her to tell me that! So thankful for that word during that dark time! Thank you Lord! Seek the Lord for all your fears & get delivered! Believe in the word of the Lord! I can't stress that enough! Have a Blessed evening!

The power of the mind

I remember when I was going through my Chemo treatments. I was so sad looking around the room! I had given up hope! I was so scared! I remember hearing of this woman's story & it inspired me! She told me she had the same Cancer I had 26 years ago and it was stage 4! They said it was nothing they could do for her, but make her comfortable! Her & her husband was so determined, that he took her to Stanford University & they began to treat her. She said she had Faith & she Prayed so hard! She said that she knew she would survive that Cancer, regardless to what they had told her! She changed her diet & she said she saw herself well! Now, this was my 1st day of Chemo & I didn't know what to expect! She was a volunteer at the hospital & she came in and shared her story. She didn't know what kind of Cancer I had, until I told her. My husband told me that was God sending her in here to give me hope! I cried & cried after I heard her story! I said I was going to fight no matter how hard it got for me! I saw myself well! I listened to a healing CD with Kenneth E. Hagin reading healing scriptures everyday. I said them to myself. I believed them! I had my moments where I was so tired & thought about giving up, but I couldn't do that! My mind was strong & I focused on a healing! I saw myself well again & living my life! I would lay in bed & see myself having fun again! I wanted to do the things I use to! I wanted to cook a simple meal & I was too sick & tired to get out the bed! I saw myself cooking a big dinner. When I did feel good, I would cook! I felt so good about myself! Until you're unable to do for yourself, you'll never understand how much I appreciate the simple things in life! When I go to the grocery store, I feel great! I use to have to ride the handicap cart around the store! I can walk on my own! I cried on my 1st trip to the store without my husband or any aide! Tears of joy! That was one of my visions of getting well! Everything I imagined, is happening in my life! God is good! The power of the mind is amazing! I used my mind & it worked! I had so many Prayers going up for me! I still think of that lady, Lilly! She was a God send! Her story was truly amazing! I looked for her at each treatment! God was smiling on me that day! Use Prayer & your mind to overcome any disease or situation! Believe in you! Know that God has the final say! My husband cooked for me everyday. I ate very healthy meals! No eating out! My immune system was low & I had to be careful of germs! I looked at my food as healing agents! That's what they were in my mind! The mind is a wonderful thing! I chose life & God gave it to me! I'm doing everything in my power to stay healthy! Mind Power is working! Have a Blessed evening! Love to all!

Exercising with Cancer is a Must Do!!!

Exercising with Cancer is a Must Do Activity

Cancer is an ugly adversary; it isn’t beaten in overtime or with an extra field goal. To beat cancer you have to outplay it and outsmart it by utilizing the best medical resources possible and by maintaining your health in other ways that make you healthier and stronger. Cancer patients with mesothelioma have a better chance of fighting the diagnosis with exercise; mesothelioma doctors recommend exercise as a way to maintain your health and keep your body and mind strong enough for your cancer treatments. 

Being diagnosed with cancer may feel like the world is crashing down around you, but in reality you have to kick yourself into gear to mentally and physically prepare yourself for your diagnosis, the treatment that goes with it and the remission you so badly want to experience when treatment is over. Physical activity – exercise – comes in many forms and it has many benefits. Some of the most lucrative benefits of physical activity or exercise are not how good you look in your swimsuit but how good you feel; the emotional and psychological benefits of exercise are imperative when it comes to fighting cancer. Feeling good gives you the energy you need to fight and to remain positive during the course of the disease. 

In addition, exercise during cancer treatment helps you respond better to the treatment by making your body stronger and better equipped to fight this devastating adversary. The National Cancer Institute has released information concerning the benefits of exercise against different forms of cancer and the benefits they provide people against ever being diagnosed with cancer. Making your body stronger before and during cancer treatments can increase your positivity, which can help your body to respond more favorably to treatment, bringing your survival chances up. 

Once you are cancer free and able to go about your life the way you did before your diagnosis, it is imperative you keep exercising to maintain your health. The healthier your mind and body, the better prepared you are to live a healthy, active lifestyle for a longer period of time. In addition, keeping yourself positive and fit is a great way to reduce your chances of obtaining other illnesses and disease. While it isn’t known whether or not your physical activity will keep your cancer from returning in the future, there is no negative side to exercising and maintaining a healthy lifestyle. 

This article was sent to me by: David Haas, my guest Blogger. David Haas is a Mesothelioma Cancer Alliance Guest Blogger. http://about.me/haasblaag

David Haas had this to say: He has recently been researching and writing about how beneficial cancer support networks and also staying physically fit is to people going through treatments, in remission, and even family members of cancer patients. He said this message is important to get out here & I agree!                                                            

Please enjoy this article! I agree with this article & I have seen the benefits of exercising through my own experience! My health is so much better due to exercise & taking vitamins & most of all, PRAYER!!! Also, I get regular check-ups.

Thank you, David! I appreciate all of your information!

Fruit: Food for thought

This email was sent to me by a friend & it changed my life! Some Dr's don't want us to know this, but fruit can save your life! I've noticed a change in my health since eating fresh fruit everyday! This helped in my recovery after Cancer treatments! I live by this! Please try this!

Eating Fruit - food for thought! Dr Stephen Mak is a friend of mine at the BSF course. He told me he treats cancer patients by an "un-orthodox" way and many patients recover. He believes in natural healing in the body against illnesses. See the article below. Thanks for the email on fruits and juices. It is one of the strategies to heal cancer. As of late, my success rate in curing cancer is about 80%. Cancer patients shouldn't die. The cure for cancer is already found. It is whether you believe it or not. I am sorry for the hundreds of cancer patients who die under the conventional treatments. Thanks and God bless. Dr Stephen Mak   EATING FRUIT... <image.png> We all think eating fruits means just buying fruits, cutting it and just popping it into our mouths. It's not as easy as you think. It's important to know how and when to eat. What is the correct way of eating fruits? IT MEANS NOT EATING FRUITS AFTER YOUR MEALS! * FRUITS SHOULD BE EATEN ON AN EMPTY STOMACH. If you eat fruit like that, it will play a major role to detoxify your system, supplying you with a great deal of energy for weight loss and other life activities. FRUIT IS THE MOST IMPORTANT FOOD.Let's say you eat two slices of bread and then a slice of fruit. The slice of fruit is ready to go straight through the stomach into the intestines, but it is prevented from doing so. In the meantime the whole meal rots and ferments and turns to acid. The minute the fruit comes into contact with the food in the stomach and digestive juices, the entire mass of food begins to spoil.... So please eat your fruits on an empty stomach or before your meals! You have heard people complaining — every time I eat watermelon I burp, when I eat durian my stomach bloats up, when I eat a banana I feel like running to the toilet, etc — actually all this will not arise if you eat the fruit on an empty stomach. The fruit mixes with the putrefying other food and produces gas and hence you will bloat! Graying hair, balding, nervous outburst, and dark circles under the eyesall these will NOT happen if you take fruits on an empty stomach. There is no such thing as some fruits, like orange and lemon are acidic, because all fruits become alkaline in our body, according to Dr. Herbert Shelton who did research on this matter. If you have mastered the correct way of eating fruits, you have the Secret of beauty, longevity, health, energy, happiness and normal weight. When you need to drink fruit juice - drink only fresh fruit juice, NOT from the cans. Don't even drink juice that has been heated up. Don't eat cooked fruits because you don't get the nutrients at all. You only get to taste. Cooking destroys all the vitamins. But eating a whole fruit is better than drinking the juice. If you should drink the juice, drink it mouthful by mouthful slowly, because you must let it mix with your saliva before swallowing it. You can go on a 3-day fruit fast to cleanse your body. Just eat fruits and drink fruit juice throughout the 3 days and you will be surprised when your friends tell you how radiant you look! KIWI: Tiny but mighty. This is a good source of potassium, magnesium, vitamin E & fiber. Its vitamin C content is twice that of an orange. APPLE: An apple a day keeps the doctor away? Although an apple has a low vitamin C content, it has antioxidants & flavonoids which enhances the activity of vitamin C thereby helping to lower the risks of colon cancer, heart attack & stroke. STRAWBERRY: Protective Fruit. Strawberries have the highest total antioxidant power among major fruits & protect the body from cancer-causing, blood vessel-clogging free radicals. ORANGE : Sweetest medicine. Taking 2-4 oranges a day may help keep colds away, lower cholesterol, prevent & dissolve kidney stones as well as lessens the risk of colon cancer. WATERMELON: Coolest thirst quencher. Composed of 92% water, it is also packed with a giant dose of glutathione, which helps boost our immune system. They are also a key source of lycopene — the cancer fighting oxidant. Other nutrients found in watermelon are vitamin C & Potassium. GUAVA & PAPAYA: Top awards for vitamin C. They are the clear winners for their high vitamin C content.. Guava is also rich in fiber, which helps prevent constipation. Papaya is rich in carotene; this is good for your eyes. Drinking Cold water after a meal = Cancer! Can u believe this?? For those who like to drink cold water, this article is applicable to you. It is nice to have a cup of cold drink after a meal. However, the cold water will solidify the oily stuff that you have just consumed. It will slow down the digestion. Once this 'sludge' reacts with the acid, it will break down and be absorbed by the intestine faster than the solid food. It will line the intestine. Very soon, this will turn into fats and lead to cancer. It is best to drink hot soup or warm water after a meal. A serious note about heart attacks HEART ATTACK PROCEDURE': (THIS IS NOT A JOKE!) Women should know that not every heart attack symptom is going to be the left arm hurting. Be aware of intense pain in the jaw line. You may never have the first chest pain during the course of a heart attack. Nausea and intense sweating are also common symptoms. Sixty percent of people who have a heart attack while they are asleep do not wake up. Pain in the jaw can wake you from a sound sleep. Let's be careful and be aware. The more we know the better chancewe could survive. A cardiologist says if everyone who gets this mail sends it to 10 people, you can be sure that we'll save at least one life.

People

I was at the Dr's office today & I noticed this woman & she looked a little sad. I smiled at her & she instantly smiled back & took a seat next me & started to talk. She asked were my kids mine & told me I didn't look old enough to have kids that old & asked if I'd had them at an early age. I was a little shocked by the age part! I told her that I was 24 when I had my son. She said WOW! I told her that I will be 40 this year. She said you look very healthy like you have never been sick before. I told her I had Cancer in 2009. She looked very surprised again & looked like she wanted to cry! She told me she had Breast Cancer when she was 35 & had a breast removed & she got it again! She just finished Chemo & Radiation & just had her 2nd breast removed! She said that she doesn't have breast anymore! I told her that she could have cosmetic surgery to repair that! I said the most important thing is that you have your life! She looked & said Thank you! She has problems do to Chemo. She has heart failure now, but she's a fighter! I told her God was able! She's 49 now. I said keep fighting & confessing her healing! I told her to eat healthy & take care of herself! I would have never been able to tell she was going through something! I don't know why people think they can look at a person & tell if they are sick! God placed me there to talk with that woman. She told me God Bless you & I told her the same & wished her well & I Prayed for her! We never know what's going to happen in our lives! Eat healthy & take care of your body! No, I didn't get Cancer because I wasn't taking care of myself! It was hereditary. I have a strong family history of Cancer! I'm taking preventive measures now! People please research how to combat Cancer! You don't have to have a family history like I did to get Cancer! Pay attention to what goes in your body! Exercise & take vitamins! I learned the hard way about vitamins! They are important! A lot of people are deficient in Vitamin D. Lack of Vitamin D can cause Cancer! Broccoli is a great Cancer fighter! Strawberries & Kiwi will combat Cancer. Just a few tidbits for those who care to listen! People this disease is real & on the rise! I don't wish this on anyone! It's a painful, miserable & deadly disease! I am awake! I was sleeping on a lot, but not anymore! My father had the exact same Cancer I had! He was healed 30yrs before he passed away of something unrelated! My grandfather died of Lung Cancer & my grandmother died of Spine Cancer! I'm making sure my kids eat healthy & take vitamins, etc! Cancer will bypass them! Listen to me, PLEASE! People educate yourselves on good health & preventive measures! Lowered immune system & stress can cause Cancer cells to become ACTIVE!!! Everyone has Cancer cells in their body. They just are dormant! I had a lot going on & my immune system was lowered & I was under stress trying to take care of my dying grandmother & holding my feelings in, that the cells became ACTIVE! Let the STRESS go! It's not worth it! I learned a lot from Cancer! It made me a better person! I'm not in my little box anymore! Life is short & I value my life & Thank God for a 2nd chance! Thank you Lord for healing me! 2yrs STRONG free of Cancer! My job is to help people! I hope this will help someone! God Bless!!! ;)
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Inspiration

We look to other people for inspiration, but I realized that I inspire myself! I have a friend who has been going through a lot with her health lately & she said the sweetest thing to me! She said I was her inspiration! She said all she could do was think about was what I went through & over came. She said if I made it through, God will pull her through! I talk to her & she may have a bad day, but she doesn't complain! She confess a healing in her body! Some of the things she talks about, I could relate. The Dr's told her she had a certain disease & she refused to accept it! She said I don't have that & she was so right! She's trusting in the Lord & getting her strength from him! I love to hear her speak in such a manner! She's inspiring herself! I told her by this summer, she will be doing so much better & she will look back on this experience & won't believe she went through that & how amazing God was to her! We have to look to someone to first inspire us & then get the inspiration from deep down within to inspire ourselves & then other's! God want us to take what we're going through & help someone else out of a dark place! God is using me & I'm be led to help others! I don't care if it's to talk, hold a hand, Pray with someone or just listen! I'm here! I feel so Blessed to have helped someone! Thank you Lord! I'm doing your will! God can heal any disease! Please believe in your healing & confess it! Stay Blessed & love to all!!! ;)
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